Kirbi's Debut

Here is my newest buddy Kirbi. He is a Black short haired hamster. I'm a sucker for animals and I was in the Petsmart getting my other pets some treats when I spotted him. I just had to take him home! During the day he spends most of his time sleeping. He eats constantly, all of my friends keep saying he is the biggest hamster they've ever seen but I don't think so. Lmao. He is a true night owl, i still have to get used to hearing him run on his wheel at 3 in the morning! Yes 3am. Lololol...neways check him out...he is the cutest<3

Lazy...

I've been very lazy today...but I'm like this every Sunday. Greg and I have been watching movies all day. So far I've seen the Illusionist which has a crazy twist to the end of the story, Bench warmers a hilarious movie about geeks...i couldn't stop laughing! Then i watched Ghostrider...please be aware that this movie is wack...so overrated...and I'm upset that i watched the whole movie, but the graphics were pretty good. Oh yeah, i almost forgot i also watched The new ninja turtles...i was not impressed...i felt like it was a kid movie that could have and should have been a better. Now I'm frying pork chops for dinner and preparing lunches for tomorrow. i don't wanna go to work tomorrow but i gotta do what i gotta do. beer pong didn't happen because a bunch of craziness happened that night but I'm looking forward to next Friday, my home girl is having a party and i can't wait. I love house parties! chilling with your friends and not spending a bunch of money on drinks. Sharing old stories and just over all having a good time with my bitchez!
Next Wednesday there is a managers meeting at my job where managers will be flying in and i know they are gonna get on my damn nerves...and i only say that because for whatever reason they think people are going to cater to them and I'm not the one! but besides that I'm watching this game right now between Davis and Kansas and its crazy...if Davis wins right now that's gonna mess up a bunch of people's brackets! wowwwww! I've decided that for my sisters birthday I'm going to take her to NY. She is gonna love it, I've already reserved a car and i plan to reserve a hotel tomorrow. Its gonna be Memorial day weekend so there will be plenty to do! I can't wait...I'm so excited! Well back to washing clothes and preparing for the week ahead of me...happy Sunday=0]

Last Night...

Last night was one of the longest nights ever. Bad things happened last night and there was nothing I could do about it...Just when it seems like things couldn't get any better this happens...why?? Now my baby is unhappy and I can't do anything to make him happy. It may not have anything to do with me or our relationship but in the long run it could effect us dramatically. Even though nothing happened concerning me last night I can feel my baby's pain because we are 1, and when he is hurt, I'm hurt. I love you baby...

Ridin

I was ridin wit my friend today it was very relaxing...check out that old fashioned truck...lmao...it was a gloomy day outside today but now the sun is going down and its so beautiful...it feels so good to finally be off work! Its Fridddddddday! I'm so excited...my friends are coming over for a beer pong tournament...pics will be taken! well...happy Friday...have a wonderful evening!

NFL owners will consider the length of hair flowing from helmets!

NEW YORK (AP)—Troy Polamalu might not have to worry about getting tackled again by his hair.
At their meetings in Palm Beach, Fla., next week, NFL owners will consider a proposal to ban players from having hair flow from their helmets below their names on the back of their jerseys.
That might affect Polamalu’s image, but help him on the field. Two seasons ago, the Pittsburgh safety with the long ponytail had his hair grabbed by Kansas City’s Larry Johnson and was thrown to the turf after an interception against the Chiefs.
The rule banning long hair on the field was proposed by Kansas City. It does not require players to get haircuts, but does “require them to tuck it up inside their helmets,” said Atlanta president Rich McKay, chairman of the league’s competition committee.
Polamalu is the best known of the players, most of them defensive backs, with hair flowing outside their helmets. Others include cornerbacks Al Harris of Green Bay and Mike McKenzie of New Orleans.
Because the rule was proposed by a team, the competition committee did not take a position on it. It will be discussed Monday with a package of other rules.

A Long Day Ahead Of Me

I woke up this morning tired and not wanting to go to work at all! But instead of laying in bed until the last minute I forced myself to wake up and get dressed. I hate working and I should have just called off but I figured save the sick days being that my boss is on vacation. No need to be off when he's off...lololololol.
So now I'm sitting here doing a whole bunch of nothing as usual. Surfing the web, chatting with various friends on facebook and myspace and bidding on ebay items. I already know work is gonna go by very slow today because its raining and I have nothing to do so I've already braced myself...lololol. I hate to complain because I get paid pretty good to sit here and do nothing all day but it gets old after a while. I think I need a chance in scenery...I want a new job but this one is 5minutes from my house and I'm very comfortable with all my co-workers. Everyone here is so happy and positive, which is great, but I have to think about myself. I'm pretty sure I have gotten everything out of this job that I'm gonna get being that I do the same thing every day. Plus there is no room for advance. I work for a small company where everyone has been here for years, so in my department unless one of them gets fired or quits I have no real chance of advancement which sucks.

On a brighter note its Thursday which means tomorrow is Friiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiday! My favorite day of the week! I'm looking forward to the next couple of weekends cuz I have some photoshoots lined up and a few must attend events! I can't wait, I love being in front of the camera it feels so good, i feel like its my destiny...lmfao. Photoshoots are a chance for me to express myself creatively and i feel so sexxy after looking at my photos! And I absolutely love partying, i don't think there is a weekend when I don't. Networking parties are the best, you meet all kind of people and hear all kinds of horror model stories lol. Its crazy how people really remember my name from photos, and I feel so honored! I love the fact that people know who I am! This helps when I'm at events because it makes me feel more comfortable, that helps because I am able to talk to people as if I've known them forever which helps get me lots of jobs and make lots of connects! I'm really trying to take it to the top, I wanna chill with Hugh Heffner and The Girls Next Door, I wanna be on King and all those hot magazines...and I'm gonna try my hardest to do it!

Dead

i'm so hurt

i don't know what to do or whom to turn to to...

what do i do??

how can this be happening?

why me? it can't be...help me please!

what did i do to deserve this?

will any one miss me?

fuck which way do i run?

left...no right...

where do i go?

am i running in the right direction?

i'm screaming but no one can hear me!

i want to live...please just let me live...

i swear i'll do right

just give me another chance

let me prove i'm a good person

tell my family i love them

i can hear him coming

i have to be quiet

where do i hide?

here...no he can see me

i'll here...

he slowly walks threw the dark wooded area...looking for her...she sits quietly...but he can hear her heart beating...she feels him getting close and she panics...

HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

she runs...

CAN SOMEBODY HEAR ME!!! HELP ME!

still running...

she stumbles over a rock and falls face first on pavement...

YES! A ROAD SOMEONE HAS TO BE AROUND!

SOMEONE HELP ME PLEASE!

I'M SO TIRED...

HELP ME!

she sees headlights...

HEY STOPPPPPPP!

she jumps in front of a car...

LET ME IN!!!!

she hops in the car...

trying to catch her breath...

THANK YOU SO MUCH!

she turns and looks at the driver to say thank you again....

YOUR WELCOME

she looks at him again

wait you're...

YES SWEETHEART

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

Lucky Libra-10/22/1985

Libra is the only inanimate sign of the zodiac, all the others representing either humans or animals. Many modern astrologers regard it as the most desirable of zodiacal types because it represents the zenith of the year, the high point of the seasons, when the harvest of all the hard work of the spring is reaped. There is a mellowness and sense of relaxation in the air as mankind enjoys the last of the summer sun and the fruits of his toil. Librans too are among the most civilized of the twelve zodiacal characters and are often good looking. They have elegance, charm and good taste, are naturally kind, very gentle, and lovers of beauty, harmony (both in music and social living) and the pleasures that these bring.
They have good critical faculty and are able to stand back and look impartially at matters which call for an impartial judgment to be made on them. But they do not tolerate argument from anyone who challenges their opinions, for once they have reached a conclusion, its truth seems to them self-evident; and among their faults is an impatience of criticism and a greed for approval. But their characters are on the whole balanced, diplomatic and even tempered.
Librans are sensitive to the needs of others and have the gift, sometimes to an almost psychic extent, of understanding the emotional needs of their companions and meeting them with their own innate optimism - they are the kind of people of whom it is said, "They always make you feel better for having been with them." They are very social human beings. They loathe cruelty, viciousness and vulgarity and detest conflict between people, so they do their best to cooperate and compromise with everyone around them, and their ideal for their own circle and for society as a whole is unity.
Their cast of mind is artistic rather than intellectual, though they are usually too moderate and well balanced to be avant garde in any artistic endeavor. They have good perception and observation and their critical ability, with which they are able to view their own efforts as well as those of others, gives their work integrity.
In their personal relationships they show understanding of the other person's point of view, trying to resolve any differences by compromise, and are often willing to allow claims against themselves to be settled to their own disadvantage rather than spoil a relationship. They like the opposite sex to the extent of promiscuity sometimes, and may indulge in romanticism bordering on sentimentality.

Their marriages, however, stand a good chance of success because they are frequently the union of "true minds". The Libran's continuing kindness toward his or her partner mollifies any hurt the latter may feel if the two have had a tiff. Nor can the Libran's spouse often complain that he or she is not understood, for the Libran is usually the most empathetic of all the zodiacal types and the most ready to tolerate the beloveds failings.
The negative Libran character may show frivolity, flirtatiousness and shallowness. It can be changeable and indecisive, impatient of routine, colorlessly conventional and timid, easygoing to the point of inertia, seldom angry when circumstances demand a show of annoyance at least; and yet Librans can shock everyone around them with sudden storms of rage. Their love of pleasure may lead them into extravagance; Libran men can degenerate into reckless gamblers, and Libran women extravagant, jealous and careless about money sometimes squander their wealth and talents in their over enthusiasm for causes which they espouse. Both sexes can become great gossipers. A characteristic of the type is an insatiable curiosity that tempts them to enquire into every social scandal in their circle.

In their work the description "lazy Libra" which is sometimes given is actually more alliterative than true. Librans can be surprisingly energetic, though it is true that they dislike coarse, dirty work. Although some are modestly content, others are extremely ambitious. With their dislike of extremes they make good diplomats but perhaps poor party politicians, for they are moderate in their opinions and able to see other points of view. They can succeed as administrators, lawyers (they have a strong sense of justice, which cynics might say could handicap them in a legal career), antique dealers, civil servants and bankers, for they are trustworthy in handling other people's money. Some Librans are gifted in fashion designing or in devising new cosmetics; others may find success as artists, composers, critics, writers, interior decorators, welfare workers or valuers, and they have an ability in the management of all sorts of public entertainment. Some work philanthropically for humanity with great self-disciple and significant results. Libran financiers sometimes make good speculators, for they have the optimism and ability to recover from financial crashes.

I'm A Sucker For Commericals

OK so I'm in Love with commericals...lol! I find myself surfing the channels only to stop and watch the commericals. I seriously enjoy commericals more than I enjoy most shows. Its even to the point where I can hear a commerical without seeing it and I know which one it is. I don't know what is it about commericals but they get my attention every time, no matter how dumb! I even buy things from commericals that I have seen, air freshener, dish detergent, food, facial cleanser, hair products, all kinds of stuff...its ridiculous. So today I told myself enough is enough! Its apparent that television has taken over my life. I then walked to the library...why I walked to the library when I have a perfectly good car is beyond me but hey I needed the exercise anyway. While in the library I came across some very interesting books but I only left with 4 being that was all I could carry and my sister didn't wanna help because she didn't want to walk in the first place. The first book is called "Till Death Do Us Part" by Dr. Robi Ludwig and Matt Birkbeck; psychological profiles of notorious killer spouses, the second book is called "Inside The Criminal Mind" by Stanton E. Samenow; perceptions into crimes in the spotlight today, from stalking and domestic violence to white-collar crime and political terrorism, the third book is called "The Cases That Haunt Us" by John Douglas and Mark Olshaker; an analysis of seven of the most notorious murders, the last book I got is called "Dead End Kids; Gang Girls and the Boys They Know" by Mark S. Fleisher; a firsthand account of a member of a Kansas City gang members life.

Now I know you all are probably thinking those are some crazy books to be reading but I did plan on getting a degree in criminal justice, I just hate sitting in a classroom listening to a teacher ramble on...its annoying, but just because I'm not enrolled in school does not mean I need to let my mind go to waste, so I try my hardest to read and keep my vocabulary up to par. Well I just wanted to share that with you all and its getting late so now I'm gonna read some of these books until I fall asleep=0]

My Intro

I discovered this site some time ago, but at that time it was not being used like it is today, so i deleted my old account and decided to create a new one! I needed a fresh start any way. Being that I'm tired of writing blogs on myspace I figured why not try a site where everyone blogs lol.
Ne ways, let me tell you about ME. I'm a full time administrative assistant and I model part time. I juggle with the constant struggle of wanting to be in school and not wanting to be in school, so from time to time I'm enrolled but right now I'm not. I know I need to finish my degree and stop bullsh*tting but its hard when you don't have mommy and daddy to leach off of and you take care of your younger sister who is also enrolled in college. My parents decided last year that it was better for them to be apart so they are currently separated and my mom is in ATL and my dad is well some where being my dad. My sister didn't want to go with either of them so she lives with me, I like it better that way anyway because I love my baby sister and I wouldn't know what to do without her! She is my real first best-friend! So Life has been hard because I will admit I hate my dad for leaving my mom and for acting as if we aren't his kids, but hey that's life. So I've also been struggling with my emotions with their separation because I at one point was a daddy's girl!
Outside of dealing with my mixed emotions I have been focusing on my modeling, I have been promoting parties, hosting parties and doing some sexy photo shoots. I have lots of future projects coming up and I have done a lot of networking which should help me get my name and face all over! So far I've got the Internet going nutz with my myspace page and my blackplanet page. Hopefully with all this work I've been doing I will soon have a possible career change, cuz I hate sitting behind a desk all day but we shall see what my future has in store for me. Well that's all folkz I'm getting off work and I can't think of anything else right now...